A friendly help and a discouraging comment

This happened last week. My one of the good net friend was in trouble and he all of a sudden asked me to provide him with my phone no. despite of having it before. He gave me the new no. and asked me to call him up or msg because he was in desperate need for a friend. I said fine lets see what this guy has got himself into this time.

The history of this guy with me is too long. To put it in a convenient manner we have been net friends for 3 yrs now and he calls himself Dark Goku and calls me as his princess. We used to have fun chatting and discussing stuff. I like him as he is 2-3 years younger than me. But last year i have been observing the decline in his net activities and thought it to be because of the recent heartbreak with bad marks in exams as the 2 prominent reasons. Now he again wanted something to talk about. When he called and opened his mouth i felt like kicking someone just for the hell of it. The poor guy has been in relationship with a girl on net for 3 yrs :(. She is underage >.> and she always betrayed him <.<> and counting this time its thrice >.< . How low can a girl go to do this kind of thing? He always accepted her back in his life because he thought her new promises are genuine to the core. But this third time he saw the proof. As if he was not seeing them twice before. *sigh* He wanted to meet her which was not a bad idea but she discouraged him. Finally they agreed to meet on airport when she returned from Edinburgh. He lost his sleep and didn't eat anything because of all the excitement. He had the exam the day he was to come back from the meeting and he didn't study for it. He reached the airport. The flight landed. She left through the security check without meeting him breaking his heart again. He called her up and she says "Don't be angry on a trivial matter as this" All the more stupid thing to say because it was not trivial from any point. He came back and after taking his exam in which he later on failed he fainted because of lack of food and sleep. His friends helped him out. >.>

Now he wants to meet again but the girl refuses. She refused to continue the relationship but when he insisted she continued it. Finally she says she needs time to dwell on it. He gave her the time too. But he tried to contact her again to talk on something she refused to pick his calls and talk. She termed him as a stalker among her friends. Deleted all her accounts because he had the access to them. Asked one of her net friends to deal with him because he is troubling her. Her friends taunted him called him for conference and she didn't say anything even after he told her what he is going through and asking her the reason for this treatment. Her friends called him a stalker and other uncalled for names. When he called her by the given name 'Sakura Chan' it became all the more fun for her friends. She never stopped them. They instead told her that she was soft on this guy. It was like a dog was being treated abominably because his mistress was soft on him. It became pathetic and after that i told him to move on. not to message her and try calling her. He wanted me to intervene and i refused on the grounds of not knowing her. So we both left it at that. He messaged her for the last time asking for the answers to his questions and no reply came.

Finally the girl's sister who is of same age as me talked to him and called him names and telling him that he was bothering an underage girl for no reason at all. She left and he told me all this. I was angry because he didn't tell me this before. If he would have done so in both the cases i might have been able to help him out by fighting it out which he lost because of lack of morale and spirit. We messaged everyday till i fell asleep at 12. I trying to help him and he trying to recover from all this.

Now a good friend of mine whom i met via net and have never met actually but talked on phone called me up and asked me the reason for being busy messaging which is usual question answer thing. He got angry that i gave my phone no. to a net friend about whom i don't know anything. He didn't buy the fact that we both trust each other a lots and lots of friendship thing. But in the end i got the comment "You are a career counselor not a Life counselor" which hurt a lot because it was a shallow remark made just because i refused to tell him what the trouble was.
In return i msgd him that a career counselor is sometimes a life counselor and what if i started giving the same remark to all my friends every time they helped me. To this there was no reply and neither did i talk after that because i was angry.

Now the guy is still pining over the girl. I am still bothered what kind of a sick girl she was to treat him like this for no fault on his part. I know one fact that net relationships are restricted to being buddy buddy thing only. Beyond that if a person wants a relationship then there should be a meeting for that. I tried to provide a friendly help and for that i got a comment that hurt. Sometimes life is not fair.

Dream Diary-3

Its been ages since i have written again.. My dreams tend to get evaporated after i wake up. I guess its all because i am noting them down here. So the number of dreams have decreased but the magnitude of scary ones has increased. I remember only one dream from today morning because i have started forgetting my other bad ones. This one led me to my office where i am working peacefully. Then i am leaving for shopping to the nearby market and i plan to go home alone while usually my boss drops me off. Now generally i avoid such situations and do the shopping before but it was my dream after all..

I went to do the shopping and surprisingly its winter and i am wearing black coat that i always dreamed of wearing instead of the dull pink one i have. And i am moving through the shops looking through the windows enjoying myself when i found myself running because some 3-4 people have started chasing me. That's weird was the thought that occurred in my mind because i didn't do anything and people are chasing me. Some people i don't know who helped me by encouraging me and holding my handing during this marathon-like chase. I was scared and had to trust the people helping me. My heartbeat rate increased and even in my sleep i knew something bad is going to happen. All of a sudden i returned to consciousness and realized i was holding my pillow tightly and my heart beat slowed. Without opening my eyes i calmed my breath and slipped back to sleep.

Shayad yehi Life hai..!!

Mujhe pata hai yeh mera first hindi post hai ab tak and sab surprised honge ki main hindi mein kyun likh rahi hoon.. actually mujhe break chahiye tha english se.. toh socha yahan par break le loon.. full time angreji padh kar and padha kar main bore ho gayi ;) kya karun meri job he aisi hai.. mujhe angreji mein baat karni padti hai and padhana padta hai english mein, toh bore toh ho he jaungi na.. :D

Hindi mein apni friends se baat karti thi phone par roz, woh bhi ab is city mein nahi hai toh kabhi-2 baat karne ka compromise karna pada. Bechara phone sirf message aur apni boss se baat karne k time par he bajta hai nahi toh sirf message karne bhar ki he iski reputation hai ab. :D Meri best friend is samay Kolkata mein hai and uske papa abhi wahan gaye hain. Maine uske liye ek churan ka packet, 2 anchor stitch kits, ek beautiful sa plastic ka packet jismein yeh sab samaan aagaya woh bheja hai. Woh mere liye coloured pens, necklace and aur bhi cheezein bhej rahi hai.. Sunne mein bachhon jaisa lagta hai par yehi sab woh cheezein hain jinko har baar use karte samay ya fir dekhte he uski yaad ayegi. Apne purane din yaad aayenge jab hum donon saath mein shopping karne jaate they. Main hamesha mere ghar se nikalte waqt late karti thi and woh chillati thi. Shivalay mein mast 2 ghante shopping karte they kabhi jewellery ki dukan par toh kabhi churan ki.. Time toh lagta he tha chahe crowd ho ya na ho. Jab bhi shivalay gay toh wahan k golguppe nhi chhode :) soch kar mann lalcha jata hai..

Uske baad woh parade jana and wahan se books lena.. course ki books lene k time par jaan nikalti thi.. novels lene k time par excited hotey they.. woh itna time nahi lagati thi coz usko pata tha ki usko kaunsi book chahiye.. lekin mere ko time lagta tha kyunki main random book reader hoon.. jo samajh aati hai utha leti thi..

fir uske baad recharge karwate they mobile ka.. mere paas kabhi recharge k liye paise nahi bachte they hamesha zaroorat se zyada kharcha karti thi.. woh apne budget se chalti thi and mera recharge karwa kar kehti thi ki tum mera kisi din karwa dena and main baad mein uska balance dalwati thi.. Uske baad hum log ya toh apne gahron k liye tempo pakadte they ya fir mere ghar jaate they..

Humne 4 saal aise he bitaye hain.. Jo yeh padh raha hoga usko lag raha hoga ki hum logon ney kitna enjoy kiya.. and yeh sach hai hum log masti bhi karte they, gussa karte they and saath mein mazaak bhi karte they..

Ab hum donon ko ek doosre ki bheji hui chhoti-2 cheezein dekh kar tassali karna padta hai.. aaj main akele shivalay jaati hoon, akele parade jati hoon.. zaroorat bhar ka saman lekar bina chat khaye aati hoon.. kitabein dekhne mein abhi bhi utna he time lagta hai lekin mere ko baar-2 ghoorne wali ya impatient ladki mere aas paas nahi hai..Mobile recharge karwane men aafat aati hai.. paise hote huey bhi nahi karwati yeh sochkar kiske liye karun? usse toh online baat ho jaati hai.. fir yeh sochti hoon ki kaunsa har baar online jane ka mauka milta hai.. messaging se he kaam ban jata hai..

City nahi badli lekin aadatein badal jaati hain and uski wajha se log badal jaate hain.. shayad main bhi badal gayi hoon.. apni purani friends se bhi ab khali normal messaging hoti hai phone toh door ab kisi k paas message se he haal chaal poochne tak ka time nahi hai.. yehi haal ab mera hai.. Shayad life badal gayi hai hum nahi badle.. Jo aapki life mein ata hai woh chhodkar chala jata hai lekin dobara woh kis mod par aa jaye yeh koi nahi janta par woh log aate zaroor hain.. Shayad yehi life hai..!!