A refreshing trip

I know this post is late in coming but well i got time to type it all now. I have been working in this office over six months now and i haven't even paid a visit to the head office in Lucknow. My boss made a sudden program of us going there and see what its like. The PDP trainer Ruchi was cajoled into joining us and our Media coordinator Rupali was all set to have a break from her usual worries.

So next morning i got late and reached the college around 10:15 A.m. and i remembered picking some stuff to eat on our way there. I bought chips, bubble gum, Polo, and some sweetsfrom college canteen. Then I and my boss started off and picked up Rupali and Ruchi on our way to Lucknow. We all just kept chattering(Rupali did most of the time since i and boss are more like listening types) and when we reached Lucknow we didn't know. Now we saw the walls and park built by the current CM and why were they made is still an unsolved question; all politics i guess. Anyways saw the elephants, CM's own statues and a beautiful fountain and losing our way three times (though my boss came before to the city but she always came from different routes and forgets them) we finally made it.

The office was actually an old bunglow and the alterations made in there were cool since they give the mixed feelings of being at home and office both. We went through a nice lawn and came across a door. When we went inside we were greeted by the receptionist who looked at my boss and failed to recognize her because my boss was wearing a saree rather than a suit!! well that was humorous. Then i and the other 2 waited outside while boss went inside and talked to the founder and head of the institute. Then i was called in and was happy with the warm welcome the lady gave me. I felt warm inside me. Then i was asked to have something and i asked for nimbu pani while my boss had tea. The head didn't know that we had already formed a team and she was surprised to find out that Ruchi and Rupali were the two eligible and experienced ladies who joined us. After a small chat i met Miss Shagun again and she was surprised to see me. She met me before when she came to my city for counselling and we had a lunch together. Then we took our leave. Me blushing because whie introducing to the staff the head realized that she misheard my name and mixed Rupali with Ruchi.

Well then we left for Saharaganj to have our lunch. I was scared of escalators so took the stairs to the top floor. There MCdonald's was full because it was weekend. Hence, we ended up having lunch at Moti Mahal. Ruchi was keen to buy Kababs from famous Tundey Kababi so we went there and bought some for her family while our boss ordered lunch. When we were about to get up Boss was called off at a sudden meeting arranged by the Lucknow director at a club. So now she left and we had some time on our hands to do some window shopping.

When i say window shopping, its just a term used when we don't have money. But we all were loaded so ended up buying something or the other. Ruchi went and bought a bag while I and Rupali rested our tired feet on a chair in AC shop. Then we went to Sahara Unique. Ruchi and Rupali bought some junk jewellery while i ended up looking thrugh dresses and wooden stuff. I came across a unique wooden box with hooks inside and a glass door on outside. It was in the combination of red and green colour with Rajasthani work written all over the decoration. I also found some beautiful dresses which were so appealing that i would have bought them off if not for the price tag. One was red short strap dress and another one a long purple gown with purple roses on the side of the dress and a hem that gave it a victorian look. I showed my finds to Rupali who bought the box which was supposed to be on discount. She thought we were lucky but it so happened we can get discount on the scratch cards. Well at least she got the discount and bought the box. Rupali was so happy she got me a necklace made of sandalwood beads. I was reluctant to have it but then she insisted and i let her buy that for me. Then the boss called and we headed to the waiting car.

On our way back i was feeling sleepy. There was no room for me to pull up my legs and sit comfortably since Rupali and Ruchi are healthy so there was no question of spare space. I had to make do with putting my head on the glass of the door and try to sleep. Rupali was listening to the songs on my i-pod and she started singing along with it. I gave her a look and she asked me whether she was singing aloud and i said yes. Then she shut her mouth and i was about to sleep when she started singing again and i couldn't help but pull her cheeks and say shut up. She was surprised and stroked her cheeks in amazement. Even Ruchi was surprised. Then rupali touched my hand said that my hands were hot as if i was having fever. I told her i am fine my temperature remains high. She made a comment at that which made Ruchi hit her on the back of her head. Then we got into a small brawl and finally ended up me sleeping on Rupali's shoulder which gave a crik on my neck. Ruchi meditating with her eyes closed and Rupali listening to music. We finally reached our homes around 7 or so. By that time i was so tired that i would have loved to lie down as soon as i reached home but kitchen duty calls. Finally after all that work and chores I slept at 12 my usual time.

Dream Diary-4

Geez i feel steamrolled!! had 3 dreams back 2 back ad it seems i need lots of sleep..!! This dream i had began with my being a certain bus with lots of people in it who all were my friends. We all talked about a girl who threatened the life of people. When we got of the bus we all were lodged in a home that had lots and lots of rooms. I for one slept fitfully while others made lots of noise. In the morning there were not many people left. I couldn't figure what happened to them. Then i saw a girl wearing blue tee-shirt and brown shorts standing with her back to me. She seemed familiar somehow and i couldn't place my finger. She left immediately. Then we all decided if anyone sees a strange girl appearing one should start yelling. Ok fine yelling is good. Brings people to rescue. Then we all settled down. We all had charges to look after i had a kid who was watching TV in a room next to mine. I kept checking on him. Finally i went further than that. I checked a room that was next to that kid's. When i opened the door i saw the girl standing there in blue Tee-shirt and she was none other than ME!!
I yelled for that kid to run. She i mean me whatever chased after us.. I yelled and everyone who was still alive heard it.. We kept running till she was close to the kid and to my horror touched his arm and he disappeared. i was scared and yelled again when i saw her coming for me. Then the dream ended. Question: Why was that girl me? Ans:- May be i am running from myself Question:- Why take lives? How could people disappear just by touch? Answer:- I don't know.

Now comes the second dream. Its more fantastic than this one. I went to this place where my friend and i usually shop. I was alone. i shopped a lot and i had to run to the office because i took break for shopping. I came across a shop that sold some cute sweets. I bought some for 20 bucks and then the shopkeeper gave me my favourite sweet for free. Then i said thank you and left the shop. The son of the owner called me from behind but i never gave him heed and moved on anyway looking for rickshaw or some mode of transport. It was already five and i was supposed to be at home by 4. But then i saw myself separated from my body. My body was sleeping in my room at home and my soul was walking. Weird!! i was supposed to reach home after my mum left for market. When she left I turned up and entered my body. Though the stuff i bought was still there with me.

This third dream starts in an underground maze kind of thing. Where people are buying and selling and all sorts of people live there.. It is also the home for everyone but instead of sky they see the ceiling. It was as if they all live under the roof of a biiiig house with lots of corridors instead of streets. There were some punjabi people who talked together of an upcoming event. A famous personality turned up and there were lots of shouts of encouragement and all. I left them at it. Then i was looking for a way out and found some stairs leading up. I went climbed them and found myself on top of the building or something. I didn't go further than the last step and turned around and came back. But the corridors and everything had changed. It was like the corridors moved or something. I was scared and it was dark outside. i tried to find my way outside but couldn't. I found a room where someone i know was standing looking in the mirror. He saw me and i ran away afraid of him. He chased me till i came across a room where the servant's kids whom i teach in the office were watching TV. One of them showed me the way out which was on the floor of my office. It was weird. Then there was a Gal and the same guy jumping on some coloured tiles making them produce noise that of piano..Seriously now how could that happen! But i waited for the darkness to lift to go home. The clouds were making it look like night. Then i woke up. Question:- Why do some of my dreams have black clouds in them? Ans:- Because of inner darkness may b.

I am tired going back to sleep @_@

A friendly help and a discouraging comment

This happened last week. My one of the good net friend was in trouble and he all of a sudden asked me to provide him with my phone no. despite of having it before. He gave me the new no. and asked me to call him up or msg because he was in desperate need for a friend. I said fine lets see what this guy has got himself into this time.

The history of this guy with me is too long. To put it in a convenient manner we have been net friends for 3 yrs now and he calls himself Dark Goku and calls me as his princess. We used to have fun chatting and discussing stuff. I like him as he is 2-3 years younger than me. But last year i have been observing the decline in his net activities and thought it to be because of the recent heartbreak with bad marks in exams as the 2 prominent reasons. Now he again wanted something to talk about. When he called and opened his mouth i felt like kicking someone just for the hell of it. The poor guy has been in relationship with a girl on net for 3 yrs :(. She is underage >.> and she always betrayed him <.<> and counting this time its thrice >.< . How low can a girl go to do this kind of thing? He always accepted her back in his life because he thought her new promises are genuine to the core. But this third time he saw the proof. As if he was not seeing them twice before. *sigh* He wanted to meet her which was not a bad idea but she discouraged him. Finally they agreed to meet on airport when she returned from Edinburgh. He lost his sleep and didn't eat anything because of all the excitement. He had the exam the day he was to come back from the meeting and he didn't study for it. He reached the airport. The flight landed. She left through the security check without meeting him breaking his heart again. He called her up and she says "Don't be angry on a trivial matter as this" All the more stupid thing to say because it was not trivial from any point. He came back and after taking his exam in which he later on failed he fainted because of lack of food and sleep. His friends helped him out. >.>

Now he wants to meet again but the girl refuses. She refused to continue the relationship but when he insisted she continued it. Finally she says she needs time to dwell on it. He gave her the time too. But he tried to contact her again to talk on something she refused to pick his calls and talk. She termed him as a stalker among her friends. Deleted all her accounts because he had the access to them. Asked one of her net friends to deal with him because he is troubling her. Her friends taunted him called him for conference and she didn't say anything even after he told her what he is going through and asking her the reason for this treatment. Her friends called him a stalker and other uncalled for names. When he called her by the given name 'Sakura Chan' it became all the more fun for her friends. She never stopped them. They instead told her that she was soft on this guy. It was like a dog was being treated abominably because his mistress was soft on him. It became pathetic and after that i told him to move on. not to message her and try calling her. He wanted me to intervene and i refused on the grounds of not knowing her. So we both left it at that. He messaged her for the last time asking for the answers to his questions and no reply came.

Finally the girl's sister who is of same age as me talked to him and called him names and telling him that he was bothering an underage girl for no reason at all. She left and he told me all this. I was angry because he didn't tell me this before. If he would have done so in both the cases i might have been able to help him out by fighting it out which he lost because of lack of morale and spirit. We messaged everyday till i fell asleep at 12. I trying to help him and he trying to recover from all this.

Now a good friend of mine whom i met via net and have never met actually but talked on phone called me up and asked me the reason for being busy messaging which is usual question answer thing. He got angry that i gave my phone no. to a net friend about whom i don't know anything. He didn't buy the fact that we both trust each other a lots and lots of friendship thing. But in the end i got the comment "You are a career counselor not a Life counselor" which hurt a lot because it was a shallow remark made just because i refused to tell him what the trouble was.
In return i msgd him that a career counselor is sometimes a life counselor and what if i started giving the same remark to all my friends every time they helped me. To this there was no reply and neither did i talk after that because i was angry.

Now the guy is still pining over the girl. I am still bothered what kind of a sick girl she was to treat him like this for no fault on his part. I know one fact that net relationships are restricted to being buddy buddy thing only. Beyond that if a person wants a relationship then there should be a meeting for that. I tried to provide a friendly help and for that i got a comment that hurt. Sometimes life is not fair.

Dream Diary-3

Its been ages since i have written again.. My dreams tend to get evaporated after i wake up. I guess its all because i am noting them down here. So the number of dreams have decreased but the magnitude of scary ones has increased. I remember only one dream from today morning because i have started forgetting my other bad ones. This one led me to my office where i am working peacefully. Then i am leaving for shopping to the nearby market and i plan to go home alone while usually my boss drops me off. Now generally i avoid such situations and do the shopping before but it was my dream after all..

I went to do the shopping and surprisingly its winter and i am wearing black coat that i always dreamed of wearing instead of the dull pink one i have. And i am moving through the shops looking through the windows enjoying myself when i found myself running because some 3-4 people have started chasing me. That's weird was the thought that occurred in my mind because i didn't do anything and people are chasing me. Some people i don't know who helped me by encouraging me and holding my handing during this marathon-like chase. I was scared and had to trust the people helping me. My heartbeat rate increased and even in my sleep i knew something bad is going to happen. All of a sudden i returned to consciousness and realized i was holding my pillow tightly and my heart beat slowed. Without opening my eyes i calmed my breath and slipped back to sleep.

Shayad yehi Life hai..!!

Mujhe pata hai yeh mera first hindi post hai ab tak and sab surprised honge ki main hindi mein kyun likh rahi hoon.. actually mujhe break chahiye tha english se.. toh socha yahan par break le loon.. full time angreji padh kar and padha kar main bore ho gayi ;) kya karun meri job he aisi hai.. mujhe angreji mein baat karni padti hai and padhana padta hai english mein, toh bore toh ho he jaungi na.. :D

Hindi mein apni friends se baat karti thi phone par roz, woh bhi ab is city mein nahi hai toh kabhi-2 baat karne ka compromise karna pada. Bechara phone sirf message aur apni boss se baat karne k time par he bajta hai nahi toh sirf message karne bhar ki he iski reputation hai ab. :D Meri best friend is samay Kolkata mein hai and uske papa abhi wahan gaye hain. Maine uske liye ek churan ka packet, 2 anchor stitch kits, ek beautiful sa plastic ka packet jismein yeh sab samaan aagaya woh bheja hai. Woh mere liye coloured pens, necklace and aur bhi cheezein bhej rahi hai.. Sunne mein bachhon jaisa lagta hai par yehi sab woh cheezein hain jinko har baar use karte samay ya fir dekhte he uski yaad ayegi. Apne purane din yaad aayenge jab hum donon saath mein shopping karne jaate they. Main hamesha mere ghar se nikalte waqt late karti thi and woh chillati thi. Shivalay mein mast 2 ghante shopping karte they kabhi jewellery ki dukan par toh kabhi churan ki.. Time toh lagta he tha chahe crowd ho ya na ho. Jab bhi shivalay gay toh wahan k golguppe nhi chhode :) soch kar mann lalcha jata hai..

Uske baad woh parade jana and wahan se books lena.. course ki books lene k time par jaan nikalti thi.. novels lene k time par excited hotey they.. woh itna time nahi lagati thi coz usko pata tha ki usko kaunsi book chahiye.. lekin mere ko time lagta tha kyunki main random book reader hoon.. jo samajh aati hai utha leti thi..

fir uske baad recharge karwate they mobile ka.. mere paas kabhi recharge k liye paise nahi bachte they hamesha zaroorat se zyada kharcha karti thi.. woh apne budget se chalti thi and mera recharge karwa kar kehti thi ki tum mera kisi din karwa dena and main baad mein uska balance dalwati thi.. Uske baad hum log ya toh apne gahron k liye tempo pakadte they ya fir mere ghar jaate they..

Humne 4 saal aise he bitaye hain.. Jo yeh padh raha hoga usko lag raha hoga ki hum logon ney kitna enjoy kiya.. and yeh sach hai hum log masti bhi karte they, gussa karte they and saath mein mazaak bhi karte they..

Ab hum donon ko ek doosre ki bheji hui chhoti-2 cheezein dekh kar tassali karna padta hai.. aaj main akele shivalay jaati hoon, akele parade jati hoon.. zaroorat bhar ka saman lekar bina chat khaye aati hoon.. kitabein dekhne mein abhi bhi utna he time lagta hai lekin mere ko baar-2 ghoorne wali ya impatient ladki mere aas paas nahi hai..Mobile recharge karwane men aafat aati hai.. paise hote huey bhi nahi karwati yeh sochkar kiske liye karun? usse toh online baat ho jaati hai.. fir yeh sochti hoon ki kaunsa har baar online jane ka mauka milta hai.. messaging se he kaam ban jata hai..

City nahi badli lekin aadatein badal jaati hain and uski wajha se log badal jaate hain.. shayad main bhi badal gayi hoon.. apni purani friends se bhi ab khali normal messaging hoti hai phone toh door ab kisi k paas message se he haal chaal poochne tak ka time nahi hai.. yehi haal ab mera hai.. Shayad life badal gayi hai hum nahi badle.. Jo aapki life mein ata hai woh chhodkar chala jata hai lekin dobara woh kis mod par aa jaye yeh koi nahi janta par woh log aate zaroor hain.. Shayad yehi life hai..!!

A beautiful and terrible day

It was a nice and hot day as usual because we were not having any monsoon rains so it was dry too. I wanted it to change but just because i thought so it wont happen. Well i asked my dad to drop me to office for a change because i don't travel by tempos in this hot and sultry weather as it harms my skin a lot.

In the office i went through my daily routine of teaching kids and then having lunch reading, novel and finally drawing a diagram for one of the kid's project. While doing so the sky clouded and it became windy. it began to rain and storm all of a sudden. i was happy to see the change. It was a terrible storm but beautiful.. yes in my opinion beautiful. The landlady (she is old) she stepped out in the rain enjoying it. I felt as if she is remembering her childhood days or something.I wanted to do the same but i din't have spare clothes.Then a sudden gust of wind sent her in and i stood watching at the rain and storm for a while and went inside to complete the drawings.
Then it stopped. Everything was wet and cool. My boss didn't turn up so i waited for the students and told them that the coaching was off and started off for home.

The environment looked washed out and beautiful and so green. The rickshaw got stuck in traffic jam and i felt after 1 year wishing that i was on bike with someone. somehow it took me 1/2 hr to reach the tempo stand. then i waited for tempo to turn up but so many passed by and all were full. So i walked to power house where stuck in jam i saw a tempo in which only one girl was sitting and it was going near my destination. i sat in it and thanked my lucky stars.
wherever we turned there was a fallen tree and broken electricity line. It was a chaos all over the city. The tempo guy didn't know the different routes and we guided him. He informed us that he was low on CNG. I cursed my bad day but then somehow we reached the destination and i walked the way back home to find no electricity. The whole city was blacked out. There was news of fallen trees, people injured and lots of bad stories. In turn i thought if there would have been more trees in the city may be this must not have happened. Whatever wrong is done by the man later on falls on him.

Small experiences

You know, i am working in this office for 2 months now and it will be 3 next month on 5th. Anyways, i have learned some new stuff such as how to use stationary normally and not normally. Sounds weird no? But it is so..

1) Pencil/pen
Normal use:- Writing
Not normal use:- hitting kids on their heads when they are not listening to u

2) Eraser
Normal use:- erasing stuff
Not normal use:- scribbling the name of the institute on it, playing sharpener and eraser fight when alone

3) Scale
Normal use:- Drawing lines
Not normal use:- using plastic small scales(and breaking them) for hitting kids (reminds me to buy a new one)

4) Scissors
Normal use:- cutting paper and other material
Not normal use:- Opening the lid of my lunch (especially the box containing dal)

They are day to day useful stuff without which i cant complete my day. Apart from this i am supposed to avoid lizards and their off springs, especially the off springs because they don't know when their life is in danger and might come under your shoes. So when i go to my office's washroom i have to look left and right(both floor and ceiling) before opening and closing the doors because one doesn't know with lizards specially the black ones.

There's another rule that i have put in my office(for myself because i am alone most of the time there) never ever leave the doors of the office room open when going to washroom. A cat- yes my dear a cat can enter the room without your knowing and hide under your desk. When you come back you might see that cat looking at you with its pale green eyes, questioning your authority and looking haughty. It might complain by mewing at you and make you feel like running away but never run instead back off from the door and say 'shoo' and it will run away giving u a glare of 'I'll be back don't forget it!' which might turn your legs to jelly and make you somehow drag yourself to a chair. (last time i saw some monkeys outside causing the racket so this security is more like necessity, cant afford my office to be trashed now can i?)

Well this is how my day goes most of the time and i hope i get more entertaining days as the time passes by.