Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Birthday 2011


My fiance's birthday.. felt like having fun but how? no scene of his coming to my place until the day before. But i did not lose hope. He came and we spent so much time together that we felt awful at our parting. Though we were satisfied with what fun we had. It felt as if my love went deeper and deeper into my heart and i couldn't explain the feeling. But then by the end of the day within 2 hrs of parting i felt as if i haven't met him in ages. It was all so strange. Missing him so badly all of a sudden.. I guess i did make his birthday memorable. I hope he enjoyed it as much as i did.

Well it was my birthday.. again.. reminds me that i am getting older with more white hair to be worried about.. hehehehe.. cutting the jokes apart i had fun this birthday. Though i missed someone special sorely. But still I am happy that my birthday as a bachelor was fun. My best friend turned up with a cake unexpectedly and gave me all the books I wanted and asked of her. It was thrilling. Then we went out to have lunch and enjoyed Chinese chop soy for the first time. The waiter forgot to give us a fork and we asked for one. He gave us coke instead which was hilarious.
Then we parted after enjoying the day. I went in the evening to have fun at my aunt's function. And then came back home at the normal time.

Waiting


The worst part of life is waiting. I hate it more or less. I am impatient when it comes to tiresome waiting. But circumstances do not allow me to take any step to make changes with that regard. Still i have learnt wee bit of patience. Its seems like ages since I have done something exciting. Its almost two months since we enjoyed so much. It feels like I am bound at home with nothing much to do. I want to go out this Christmas and have some fun. Whether with my friend or alone. i don't care. Even if I get at least 2 hours worth of moving around I would do it. I want some time alone to be with myself or my Friend. I want to have that time of my life back when we used to enjoy a lot. Seems like I wont be getting that part of my life back any soon. As after this month is over preparations are to be looked forward to. My marriage will be the focus of everyone.

I miss my special someone. But he cant be here with me and i would really love to be with him. Its not possible and not as easy as it seems. i have to wait to be with him. I wished and thought that may be this Christmas will be special. I dont want party. I don't want treats, Santa or gifts. I just want either my friend or my special man to be with me this Christmas.

If this is not possible then all i have to do is keep waiting for it to happen next year.