29 April 2011

A day to be remembered when i took a special care of myself running around getting some make up on my face and putting a gorgeous dress just to look a special person with a special day getting ready for someone special. I have never felt so beautiful or good before in my 25 years of life. All physical factors come in way when it came to that. But this was my day. It was a special one for me. I should look the best.

Reaching the place of engagement before his family was a hurried thing. Then he and his family came. I waited in a room till i was called upon. I was nervous again meeting him after a week. I walked slowly with the entourage of women of my family following me. Can't believe i was bit scared but tried to act goofy in front of my cousin's camera just to annoy him a bit and i felt better. I reached him, sat next to him, tried to see him discreetly but it was not possible with the whole family watching us as if we were on stage which was not the case. Then came the most painful moment of our life. It was greeting every member of our families, receiving gifts and forced to eat laddoos just for the sake of ceremony. Eating all those laddoos made me hate them even more. i was on brink of vomiting it all but we had water and caught my breath for a while. same was the case for him. Finally all this business was done with when it was snack/dinner time which made our stomachs groan with pain of all those laddoos. We shared a plate (insisted by someone), fed each other and i felt closer to him.

Then we were left alone for time being and we exchanged our phone no.s and email. We got a bit personal that day and i accepted the fact that this guy is my future. I should do my best not to let that smile slip off his face. May be it was the penance for my past sins or his being gullible and sweet made me vow that. Finally it was time for them to leave. I felt different as if now i have someone in my life and i am not single any more. Some things were left unsaid and were waiting to be said at proper time. They were going. Everyone was teasing him and me. We took it all sportingly. They left and then i came back home alone in status but with someone in heart.

A turning point in life

A turning point in life

Life is a journey. Its a fact. Everyone knows it. But there is a turning point in everyone's life. Whether one slips on this turning point or deals with it as per the circumstances depends on the individual. I had a big turning point in my life in April 2011. I met the guy i was supposed to spend my life with for the first time of my life. Lemme explain from the beginning.

It was 12 April 2011. The whole family of the prospective groom was supposed to come at my place to officially meet me. It was a tiring day but an exciting evening. Seeing him first was like a kind of shock. He was sitting on a sofa opposite me. Instead of saying Hi which was expected of me i did namaste. How stupid and nervous i could be i cant imagine. I sat on the sofa opposite him and tried to observe his family members discreetly. His father, mother, sisters all looked at me. Then his mother and sisters started asking questions of me which were expected of them. My aunt offered us to go in my parent's room and spend some time together. Though the rest followed i was nervous. I kept thinking O God! help me how should i manage this. When we were alone for time being. We talked like mature adults do. All the time my heart beating furiously making me aware that i was being nervous. I liked the guy. But it was all serious talk we had and i felt as if i know him. He is like an open book for me. I felt i could see a part of myself in him. It was a strange feeling. I thought i couldn't get a better guy than him if i get to marry him. Time passed. They left and the whole family crowded on me that what we were talking about for 1/2 hr which was too much time according to them to be given. I answered them and then we got busy clearing the place off.

At night i was talking to some people online and was trying to bury the constant ravaging thoughts of whats next? what if i am rejected since we didn't get a clear answer immediately. All these thoughts were dispelled at 11 P.M. that night when they called up to inform me that they agree on this union. It was a big relief but now i faced another problem which was how to accept a new person in my life. A strange feeling but acceptable at once. Lets see what happens on our engagement on 29th April.

Curious Play (closing theme)

If I were to call out your name, I might wake up suddenly.
I should’ve known this was too good to be true.
There’s no way the same coincidence could happen twice.

Your eyes never leave a girl in the crowd with the same hairstyle as me.
You must be looking for someone.
Maybe you’re in love with her?

But when our eyes finally met, that girl turned out to be me.
No way, this can’t be, you’re walking towards me.

Flames of passion begin to run through my entire body.
I had better keep my wits about me, otherwise I might be consumed.
But I can’t exactly today. I feel like a little lost kitten.
If you show me the slightest compassion, I’ll just have to follow you home.

But now, what you’re telling me is just too much the same.
You’re saying the exact same thing you told me in the dream last night.

There’s a one in a million possibility that my dream could come true.
But you tell me, "That ‘one in a million’ is me."

Flames of passion burn intensely.
I must extinguish them right away before I get hurt.
But I can’t, exactly. I kind of want to get closer to you.
When you’re not even tangible, you can’t expect me to catch up to you.

But when our eyes finally met, that girl turned out to be me.
No way, this can’t be, you’re walking towards me.

Flames of passion begin to run through my entire body.
I had better keep my wits about me, otherwise I might be consumed.
But I can’t exactly today. I feel like a little lost kitten.
If you show me the slightest compassion, I’ll just have to follow you home.

A big trip to Punjab

When a person starts feeling his/her life dull and without adventures then one starts thinking whats the purpose of leading such a boring life? Well, same happened to yours truly a month ago when a telephone call for an invitation to attend a cousin's marriage came. I for one was against going but and yes there is a big BUT i was dragged along. My parents and i were the ones to make this trip in Jan. Try sleeping in the lower berth with 3 men snoring above you will win the awards for a sound sleeper. The trip was fine till in the morning a gentleman came down from his berth and started chatting with my parents and ultimately asked me which class do u study?? Seriously, as i grow older the questions such as these have become infuriating not to mention me and my bro are thought of as twins now (he being older in their opinion while its opposite). I am a girl with a job not a class 10 student!! well this thing was dealt with diplomatically and had a chatty trip to the place.

The day we reached there, we just met people had lunch twice, our stomach muscles were paining from all that food so we went shopping. Attended functions and held the same scenario all 3 days till i came back. Our journey back was tiring and painful with the train being late and us running hungry. Not to mention the tension of lugging the luggage since we brought back the double no. of bags than what we took with us. My parents are not allowed to carry heavy loads so i was a coolie for time being till we found some for such work.

Talking about making a journey is quite easy but actually making is difficult. I understand that but at least i liked the fun and happiness i got by making this trip after 4 years. No one reading this will believe that i haven't left the state in four years. How could I? My folks are conservative after all.

Narnia

A nice story of Dawn Treader read by me attracted me to watch the movie. I and my bro were ready to go and watch it in English but we faced a disappointment of the reel being defected and we had to watch the movie in English. Well we obliged since we had already bought the tickets. Finally we watched the show with only 9 people in the hall. It was fun to watch in hindi and i long to watch it again in English. Hopefully someday i might watch it on DVD. Had fun again for Narnia :D

Harry Potter watching Day!

Yayyyyyy.. finally the 1st part of Deathly Hallows was released in India and me and my bro couldn't wait to watch it in movie hall. So we bought our tickets a day before. But it was embarrassing enough when we were questioned as following:-

Man at ticket window:- How may i help u?
Bro:- We want a two tickets for Harry potter, tomorrow's show at 10P.M.
Man:- Ok tomorrow's show 10 P.M, Harry potter
Bro:- Yes
Man (while clicking mouse on computer):- Tomorrow 10 P.M. 2 tickets harry potter
Bro:- yes
Man(while looking at tickets):- Tomorrow 10P.M. 2 tickets harry potter
Bro:- yes (totally irritated)
and people behind us sniggered for God knows what reason. Well finally the day of the show comes but i was too worked up to even revel in the happiness as

1) it was raining heavily outside
2) it was raining heavily outside, and;
3) it was raining heavily outside

So i was waiting for the rain to stop so that i could go to office. Finally i reached office by 2 in the afternoon and had to go and buy some books from a bookstall and broke my shoe. Well yes broke my shoe. Now i had to say goodbye to my 5 year old buddy. In the office i worked myself to exhaustion, went to shopping with my PDP trainer who had to leave for a journey and i finally had to buy new bathroom slippers. Finally at home by 7 and relieved of the day's adventures felt the exhaustion in full flow but didn't want it to dampen my spirits. At 10 we were there and watching it. finally cam back at 12:30 and felt at top of the world. I named it Harry Potter watching Day coz for the first time i watched it with my bro only. Others wanted to tag along but we tackled them ;)

Finally a news for people who are reading this. I deleted my orkut account because i saw no point in having a account which was useless and not a source to b contacted anymore. Besides i wanted to bury some old happy memories forever and I meant it this time.

The Big Day

My Big day has come and gone. It was supposed to be a special day but i didn't get the feeling that it was a special day for me. Just a regular one. May be this year the mood was off a bit. Anyways, it started with annoyingly buzzing of my phone since 7 in the morning. A stupid friend of mine wishing me through messages when i have always told her to message me after 9 since i am a late sleeper and riser. Either her brains go down the drains while reading my complaint message or she refuses to understand what is it saying. Since my Friends and my brother's friends had already wished me at night after 12 i had no one else to look forward to except my family's wishes. Then started my normal but hectic day. Had to make the office boy run for some errands, made two calls to Singapore for the first time of my life and was surprised to hear people there speaking so softly which made me dig my phone in my ear to listen what they are actually saying. Then I distributed chocolates among kids, my boss and another coordinator. When the students left we had a chocolate pastry party and we left at 7.

When I reached home i saw my cousin there and then we had small bhelpuri party. It was not much fun but it was fine. Finally when everything was over i changed and relaxed. We didn't go out for the dinner since we all were full. Then talked on phone, receiving wishes and had a small funny incident with my cousin giving surprise to his mother by flying back from Canada and the family in Canada was mum all the time on phone with regard to his arrival or anything. We had coke at the neighbour's place: just me and bro. Around 11:45 we came back and i watched TV and then went off to sleep.

That was my simple and not so exciting 24th birthday. I wish that i had my close friends here with me to have a big party bash.