The more you talk, the more you grieve

Its not a proverb. I just made it up. It is common knowledge that people tend to say lots of things in the heat of moment and regret it later. What they tend to forget that they cant mend what has been broken due to their speech. Everyone in this world once or twice must have felt it that they have hurt the feelings of other by saying things that they shouldn't. The realization of their mistake dawns upon them quite later when a rift in the relationship has already been made. This rift can not be cured. Its like a disease which if given leverage by more speech can spread. It can further lead to breakage of lifetime bonds.

People feel sorry for themselves when they think of such occurrences in their lives. They think of what can be done or could have been done. Instead they should live in present rather than think of past and future. I know its difficult for a person to follow such thoughts but an effort needs to be made in such direction.

When a woman faces such problems she blames the person who perpetrated it. She will look to the future and past and keep on blaming people around her and still won't be satisfied till her feelings are remedied. The remedy can be to console her and take her into confidence and furthermore replace the happenings of the past with the help of man she loves. If her lover consents or is willing to help her.


When a man faces such problems he will blame first then feel guilty of what he has done and will not even think of how to remedy it. He will crave for his woman's love to make him forget it but any wrongs done against other can not be easily forgotten. His expectation of leading a normal life can not be fulfilled. He should choose a course which will help him gather his bearings and make certain changes which deflects the same things from happening again.

Instead, people will stay mum and won't talk. Believing to be happy in the moment but being sad inside and becoming unhappier still with advent of thoughts which swirl in the head which further come out from the mouth in the form of speech bringing a person to square one of his situation. 

Rain

I Hate Rains....Its a fact... It distresses me..It brings to mind depressing memories.. I wish I could be more like someone who laughs in adversity and bears it easily. I get the closed-in feeling during rains. I feel sadness  inside even though no event occurs to provoke it. But today i feel choked in sadness.. Something has happened. It may either change my life for worse or it may bring my life on track. The decision depends upon me. I wish I was a kid and the decision making was not in my hands. I wish to be in never-land where kids live free of decisions and living life to its fullest. I think wishing is not for me. As a rule I am not supposed to make wishes. For if you ask for something you have to give something too.

I hope I might start loving the rain sometime in future.

Life and red thread of fate

Its been quite a while since my last post. It seems whenever I am depressed i turn to blog writing that too when I am in my hometown. I don't have enough time normally to do the typing or reading stuff which invokes thought process for writing it. Anyways my excuses aside I read today about red thread of fate. Its a thread that binds two people for eternity and it cannot be broken even in death. I have been wondering since then that am I really bound by it? How can anyone be sure that it binds us to the right person? Is it fate? or is it the universe contemplating the actions of human kind? May be I can't answer it correctly as I am not a philosophical person. The answer lies somewhere out there and I don't have time and energy to search for it. Life is too short in some instances to answer certain in-depth questions relating to it.

I have been thinking along these lines for quite a while now. I feel so bound and caged like a bird who can't fly as per its choice. What I want with my life, I am not sure myself. Every step I take in my choices I have to take two steps back when they are not thought to be wise. Every happiness I want to share with my life-partner ends up in my spoiling it by going in depression. For once I wanted to have fun with him alone. But it was not possible. Instead wherever he took me with the other companions I felt sadness inside me. The sadness was prolonged more so by certain events which further brought in me negative thoughts of being cause of such events and leaving his life for good. His power of conviction was strong enough to leave the thoughts aside and start anew.

But I don't know for how long will he keep convincing and for how long will i keep starting afresh with my life. I wanted a new life between us and its not possible due to biological circumstances for a while. I thought that with a new being a new life will be waiting for us. But either I am being tested by my providence or I am being too naive to continue in every aspect of my life.

Now I think about it is the red thread of fate linking us together? or I am being a fool to believe in it. It may be both or may be none. I think of my life ahead and measure the what ifs. I come to a neutral answer which angers me and tests my patience. May be this was meant to be. Or may be we could have a love story to begin it so that such happy memories would have acted as catalyst in the darkest of hours in our lives. Or may be........................